Cheater, Cheater, Crap Food Eater!!

so during phase one of south beach, i didnt dare cheat. i even had horrible dreams about cheating on the diet and feeling sssuuuuppppeerrrr guilty, just from a dream. well, today i cheated, big time. i went to olive garden and while i was there i ate two bread sticks, and soup and salad... i dont even want to think about the number of calories i consumed at lunch. then for dinner, it was a faustos carne asada salad...bbblllaahhhhh...  i feel like total crap, not only from eating horribly fattening and high caloric foods, but mannnnn do i feel guilty. i feel like i just cheated on a test, or betrayed my best friend or something... i wont be doing that again.

p.s. i wrote this from my phone, so for some reason it wont let me use symbols or my caps button... so my grammar, and possibly spelling sucks in this post haha...

good night everyone, and happy healthy eatings.

4.55%

Well, I made it! Today was my last day of phase one. I may stay on it for another week. I haven’t decided yet. I am down about 10lbs, that’s 4.55% weight loss... and for some crazy stupid reason... THAT’S NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME!!!! 10lbs is alot to lose in 2 weeks. But, I don't feel like I look any different, therefore I am not happy with the results. I feel like a cry baby, because I worked hard at self-control to lose 10lbs, and I won!! I made it to the gym a few times. I haven’t been in about a week, damn life getting in the way of my plans. I am going to go tomorrow morning for sure though. I HAVE to go, "NO EXCUSES" (I have been watching Biggest Loser, can you tell?).

Last Thursday I went to weigh in for the City of Henderson Lighten Up challenge... can we say EEEWWWWWWW....

That was depressing! 50% body fat... HALF OF ME IS MADE OF FAT!!!!!! Wow, what an eye opener! I advise you to find out your body fat, that will give you a serious kick in the pants. I did not think I had that much body fat. I’m still not sure how a scale can determine the amount of body fat you have, but whatever, it’s still gross, and humiliating. Can’t wait to go back in March and see something more reasonable... what is reasonable anyway?? I know it’s nowhere close to 50%, that’s for sure!

Anyway, I have been feeling down these last few days. I think it is a result of not going to the gym, so I don’t feel like I have given it my all. I guess I was expecting to see more results than just what the scale is telling me. Oh well, I still have about 2 weeks to get down to a 16. I can do this! I know I can, I need to prove to ME that I can. Plus, it would be nice to get back to feeling some-what good about the way I look, because it ain’t happenin’ now...

Until next time...

City of Henderson is trying to motivate the community...

I think I may join in on this... who wants to join me?

HENDERSON, Nev. – It’s time to lighten up. This is the citywide weight loss challenge being issued by the City of Henderson Parks and Recreation Department to everyone who lives, works and plays in Henderson.

From Jan. 9 through Jan. 12, participants (ages 14 and up) may visit Heritage Park Senior Facility (300 S. Racetrack Rd.) or Henderson Multigenerational Center (250 S. Green Valley Pkwy.) to sign up for and weigh in to the free Lighten Up Henderson program. Those accepting the challenge can work out on their own, at a fitness club, or at a City of Henderson recreation center, where fitness room memberships are available for as little as $15 per month for unlimited access. The challenge is designed to support people in their efforts to get fit and lose weight.

The final days of the challenge are March 26-29, when participants are invited back for a final weigh in to see how much they have lost. City of Henderson fitness memberships will be awarded and recognition given by Mayor Andy Hafen for the most “lightened up” in each age bracket.

“Two-thirds of the adults in Clark County are overweight, and this can lead to a host of health issues, many of which could be prevented with regular physical activity,” said Sally Ihmels, Recreation superintendent, City of Henderson Parks and Recreation Department. “We’re hoping Lighten Up Henderson motivates people in our community to make positive lifestyle changes and turn Henderson into a healthier, more vibrant place to live, work and play.”

For additional information, visit cityofhenderson.com/parks or call 267-4070.

The nationally accredited City of Henderson Parks and Recreation Department provides premium services through diverse and innovative parks, recreation and natural resource opportunities. It serves the community with seven recreation centers (including a facility for adults 50+), 11 pools, 53 parks, five skate parks, two sports complexes, more than 65 linear miles of trails, Acacia Demonstration Gardens, the Henderson Bird Viewing Preserve, and thousands of programs for people of all ages and abilities.

A case of the Mondays

Was today a Monday or what?? Nothing worse than a Monday at work going by soooooo slllloooowwwww! It causes the munchies, and there are lots of bad munchies around my office. M&M's, popcorn, chips, and a whole vending machine (that is luckily at the other end of the building and downstairs) to get whatever isn’t around the office. I don't know if this is true for all diets, but days 5 and 6 are the HARDEST!!! I could smell fresh bread from a mile away; I can taste chocolate cake that I am envisioning in my head... ughhhhh. but luckily for me I brought my handy dandy peanut butter for my celery (peanut butter is ok in small amounts during phase one... I may got beyond my small amounts on some day, but me and peanut butter cannot go without!)

And then the gym... I was pumped to go this morning, packed my gym bag to go after work and everything. As 4 o'clock drew near I found myself trying to find a reason not to go. I'm tired... I'll be too tired at work tomorrow... I just don’t feel like going... Then I said to myself...Down 5 pounds in 6 days!! Haven't cheated one time!! It only 30 measly minutes on the elliptical!!

So I went, felt great that I overcame myself, essentially. Then I decided to see if I still hate the treadmill as much as I used to... I do. 10 minutes and I was toast! 10 freaking minutes! So annoying!!! Then to the weights... man are my arms weak! Then some abs work, it’s amazing what having a baby does to those poor muscles. Overall, I’m glad I made myself go, but very annoyed and frustrated at starting over... AGAIN!!

I blame it on the case of the Mondays. I am already fighting with myself about going tomorrow. I packed my bag, I'm sure I'll go... I just won’t start with the treadmill ;) Plus, it will be Tuesday, it already makes it better!

South Beach and Me

Well, just finished up day 4 of South Beach... a cracker never looked so good! Haha. I didn’t take my weight before I started the blog, I’m pretty sure I was right around 220-ish. Today the scale read 217.5, so a couple pounds lost. Hoping to be down at LEAST 10 more by next Tuesday and a size 16 by the end of the month. Although a cracker looks so good, I would hate to ruin the progress I have made. I have gotten to the gym only twice. Life gets so crazy. I really need to focus on making the gym as high of a priority as brushing my teeth... it really is equally as important if you think about it. I feel good though- sore-but good. I’m not feeling a huge difference physically (yet) but mentally I feel great. I haven’t cheated one time since I started the diet Wed. Not one carb (from breads, pasta, etc.) and NO SUGAR... both of which are my ultimate weakness. I can’t wait to be done with these two weeks... not so I can eat carbs and sugars again, but bc I know I won't want them. I will admit now though, I will cheat next Saturday bc it is Zoies birthday party. But I will only cheat very limitedly ;)

So those of you who don’t know what the South Beach diet is, READ THE BOOK!!! It’s like $8 at a book store for the paper back . And now they have a new one that has an exercise routine too. Anyway, the book is awesome. It explains WHAT your body does with the food you eat, WHY you feel the way you do after certain foods, and gives you solutions to changing your lifestyle to healthy eating habits. I don’t follow it exactly. I make it work for me. I can’t do low fat cheese, or eat turkey bacon... but eating regular cheese and regular bacon in moderation still works. This time around (I have done it after each baby) I am trying more foods, experimenting more. For lunch today I ate everything I would eat in a sandwich, on a large piece of lettuce. For dinner the other night I cooked some chicken on the stove seasoned with taco seasoning and a little bit of green enchilada sauce, cooked it almost done then threw it in the oven with some cheese over the top to finish. Then I dressed it with guacamole, tomatoes, shredded lettuce, beans, and fresh salsa... SO YUMMMMYYYY!!! And guilt free!!! Once you read the book, you will know what you can and can’t eat. There is still soooo much that you can!

On the menu for this week:

Vegetable soup

Mozzarella Chicken Bake with squash and zucchini

Lettuce Tacos

Chicken Enchilada Soup

Turkey Chili

Teriyaki Chicken

And some other yummy things...

A good substitute for those sweet tooth cravings? Russell Stover's sugar free chocolates. You would never know they are sugar free!!

And did I mention, watching Biggest Loser is such a motivation. I know I will not pull numbers like them... But DANG, can I have Dolvett for just ONE WEEK!!!! I wish I was rich so I could afford him!! Haha!

Anyway, I am feeling good, I feel like I’m making progress, and I know I am going to accomplish what I have set out to do. I was overwhelmed with the response I got from my first post. I feel blessed to have so much support, and I am rooting for everyone else who shared their feelings too! We can all do it; all we need is the desire :)

My introduction

My name is Tiecha, I am a mother of 3 daughters; 5, 3, and 4mo. I have been married for almost 7 years. That’s the basics.

When I was in high school, I weighed 125lbs. I played sports, I wore bikinis, I was crowned as a beauty queen. If you saw me today you would never know the above was my past. Since then, I have gotten married to an amazing man, had 3 beautiful daughters, and lost my 125lb-self inside of a 95lb real-life fat suit. This just hit me yesterday… I am 95 POUNDS heavier than I was when I graduated high school 8 and half years ago, that is almost 100 POUNDS.

GROSSSSSS!!!!

There is not ONE excuse that is even remotely good enough for this to have happened.  3 kids DOES NOT = 95lbs. It is embarrassing to admit this. It breaks my heart that I could let myself go THIS much. I see obese people and I think, “How could you live that way?” Uh… HELLO? How can YOU… I?? It is crushing to my self-esteem, and my confidence. There are days that I am embarrassed to go anywhere because I am SO HUGE! My clothes don’t fit right, and I still look pregnant in most of them. I should never feel so ashamed of myself that I don’t want to be around other people. That is CRAZY TALK!! But it is my reality, and I need to change it.  I know I am still an athlete, who apparently checked out quite a few years ago. My weight has fluctuated dramatically since having kids. My lowest since my first daughter is 180lbs (still not acceptable) my highest 220 (minus being pregnant. That was 228).  I have always used the excuse of having babies for my size. That is unacceptable. My husband and I do plan to expand our family by one more in the next 2 years, and normally my thought would be," Just wait until you're done having kids, THEN worry about getting skinny again." I don't want that mentality anymore. I want to get skinny NOW!

My goal? 150.

So as you can tell I have my work cut out for me. I am signing up for a 5K for the end of February. I started the South Beach Diet today, and got my fat butt back to the gym. I have done the SB in the past (after each child) and lost between 20-40lbs; I hope to do the same again.

My intentions with this blog are to keep a journal of my thoughts, feelings, failures and accomplishments. I hope to motivate myself through your comments, and I hope to inspire other moms to get up and peel off their real-life fat suits. Because that’s all they are, they are just a suit that we can remove when we are ready to make it happen . I know I’m more than ready.

Disclamimer: If you don’t have anything nice to say then just keep it to yourself. It is not easy to come out and admit your weight, and let yourself be vulnerable to others. Please feel free to leave words of encouragement, your experiences, and your accomplishments.